Dhruva Maharaja received diksha from a great devotee and after six months he received darshana from Lord Visnu.
You are not having darsana of Lord Vishnu because one has to chant his mantras with firm faith.
The imperfect pronunciation of the mantra is not a problem, a father loves to hear his baby’s babbling words.
The word mantra means: man = mind, and, tra = protect. Chant the mantras with simple faith, not crooked, not cunning.
Practice sadhana and bhajana in a simple way, the potency of the mantra is independent of knowing the meaning of the mantra.
Sanatana Gosvami tells the story of Gopa Kumara, he was illiterate, a simple gopa (cowherd boy).
Mercy comes in three ways: hardik = from the Guru’s heart to the pure and sincere heart of the disciple; vacik = through the words of the Guru; aloka-dana = through the eyes of the Guru. -Gurudeva’s harikatha enters through your ears, goes to your heart and cleans out everything that is undesirable. This is called shabda-brahma, the sadhu’s harikatha is not different from Krsna.
The Guru of Gopa Kumara is called Jayanta. He asked Gopa Kumara for milk to encourage and nurture love, give and take.
Sri Gurudeva explains the fourth verse of Sri Upadesamrta: dadati pratigrihnati
The Guru is very smart about how to create sukrti in the disciple’s heart. When the sukrti is ripe and accumulated, the disciple begins to develop his spiritual life.
Serving the Guru with intimacy is called “vishrambhena”.
Guru Jayanta gave the six-syllable gopal-mantra to Gopa Kumara, which we currently chant has eighteen syllables.
As soon as Guru Jayanta initiated Gopa Kumara into the gopal-mantra, he fell down in a faint and did not explain the rules of how to chant. Then Gopa Kumara went to fetch water for him, but on his return his Guru was gone.
The ending of this harikatamrta is especially touching!
Four types of heroes: dhirodatta, dhira-lalita, dhira-santa and dhiroddhata.
Eight types of heroines: abhisarika, vasaka-sajja, utkhanthita, khandita, vipralabdha, kalahantarita, prosita-bhartrika and svadhina-bhartrika.